Yes... Please... I want to get rid of these negative feelings... Please... Will You take away these feelings that I should not have and bitter and torturing and which hurt me so much?
I thought I am immune with all those things already....
I thought I can handle it by my own.... My own way.....
I thought everything is fine....
I was able to laugh and have fun and yes, feel blessed with all the friends around me and with the presence of You.
But, I just realized that I still could not let it go......
The truth is... I still care.....
When the night fall, I am once again dropped back to the uncontrollable feeling of hatred and betrayal....
When others are praising how sweet, how nice, how beautiful is the incident, I am disgusted.
What is so good about them? The fact is, what they are now, and how close they become today, are all because of the friends around them, and to be harsh a bit, based on the suffering of the others, to the people whom they claim to be their best friends. What so beautiful about their relationship then? When they are too immersed in their own world and neglecting the rest of their friends? And, won't they even care how the others feel????
Alright, I know I should not feel this way...
But, at the same time, I do not see the reason for me to sympathy them and forgive them for whatever they did... And stupidly walk to them and start to talk to them again...
It just seems ridiculous.
Father in Heaven, just pray that I would not be troubled with this matter anymore....
I will just surrender it into Your hand, Almighty Lord. And Yes, You will take care of it.....
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