Negligence

How to start this? I don't know...
I just feel that as all of us are busy with our own work, we start to be taken away a bit by bit from the friends around us. We are too immersed in our own business and somehow abandon the friends around us who might need our help, our encouragement, our support, or simply, our company.

Are we that busy until we forget about them?
Perhaps.
Even I did the same thing too.

No. No one has to feel guilty for behaving such way as the purpose of me writing this post is not putting blame on anyone. I am just telling the truth. And by telling the truth, I hope all of you will reflect about yourself and rethink of what you have done today or yesterday or last year, to think and reflect of your action and words. Did you ever neglected someone and hurt them? Did you ever be too occupied with what you were doing and shut them out from you?

Come to think of it.
What is your priority in life? What is the most important thing for you?

Study?
Lover?
Parents?
Sibblings?
or
God?

I will tell you this honestly.
I put my studies first than anything else.

I always want to score well in every of my quiz, test or exam. I always want to be that first, that most intelligent, the best, person. Thanks to my kia su spirit. But this is what drives me on and on in my studies. Even though I am feel tired and wary along the journey, I still hold on and continue to pursue my goals.

But, when I come to think of it now, I just realized how I have abandoned and neglected, and how ignorant and negligence I am, for overly immersed in my own study world. What I have lost and what I have gained by these years by studying that hard.

Things I have gained are of course, high score in exam, straight As' in SPM, JPA scholarship, and praises and others' envious. Undeniably, I enjoyed all these praises and attention. But the hapiness I got is just temporary. It does not last.

What then? Can bring true hapiness to me? The everlasting joy?
Then, I come to find the answer. It's LOVE!!!!

Only love and the sense of belonging can bring permanent joy and the feeling of peace to me.

Love from whom then?
Family, friends, lover, and most importantly His love.

For non Christian, I have to say sorry here if you feel uncomfortable with what I am writing or feel offended. I have no intention of critisizing or disgrace other religions. I am not a hypocrite as what you might think I am now. I am not ashame of telling you the truth. I am just speaking from my experience, what I have truly gone through and what I have felt along the way.

This Love of Him is so great that it really touched me a lot. I can really feel the peace of mind and heart and joy and hapiness. His love made me realize what I have done wrong and what I should overcome to make myself a better person ir rather, a better Christian in serving Him.

If we love Him, we should love our neighbors too. Just as how He love all of us.

This statement made me look around the people around me. What I have missed and neglected in my life. His people. His will in us.

And His love has guide me back to showing my care for others. Not become a cold blooded person who does not even care what the people feel around her.

I am still learning though. Learning to forgive, learning to accept, learning to show my care for the others and most importantly, to do all of these sincerely. To do all of these with wisdom. And to do all of these in ways that can bring glory to Him.


I am really sorry once again if I said something that offend anyone of you. And I hope that this would not divert you away from coming to know our Lord Father.

May God bless each and everyone of you.