He has a plan!

*After speaking with Victor today, I realized a very important point, a very significant event that happened in my life that has changed me, inside out. This idea strikes me and I just have the motivation to write down here in my blog to share with you. I hope you like this*


How many of you ever wondering,

"Why am I here?"
"Why am I born into this world?"
"What is the purpose and meaning of my life?"

or more to it,

"How could I get here in the first place?"

I am not going to tell you about the Big Bang or the theory of evolution that you might perhaps already learn in your Physic and Biology classes. Nor am I going to bring you through a Biology course explaining to you about the sperm and the ovule and the fertilization and PUFF! the creation of a new baby.

YES! This is another testimony for HIM! Someone that I love so much.

How many of you actually believe that God changed your life and He is going to do a lot more miracles in your life? Amen! I believe in that and He did change my life.

I don't know how many from my American-bound friends from Malaysia actually already knew that they are going to come to the United States one day. Okay, maybe not KNOW, but ever DREAM of??

I know some of my friends have always wanted to come to the States since young and that's why they applied for the JPA scholarship and picked the courses that will allow them to come to the States even though the course might not be something that they really like or passionate about.

For me, I never thought of coming to the States. Mark my word: NEVER!
Never ever. Full stop.

This whole JPA scholarship application stuff never been important to me. I applied them just because everyone else is applying and that's why I think I should apply too.
Hah!

When I went to the interview, I could see that all other applicants were fully prepared for it. They dressed up formally. They already got the information from their seniors on how to do well in the interview. And me? Just went there like that's another normal day (which I still couldn't believe I actually did). Nonetheless, I got nervous during the interview and I actually trembled so badly that I could not even speak clearly. That was so embarrassing.
Therefore, I already knew what my result gonna be even before stepping out from the interview room.

I still can remember the day when the scholarship's result was out. I was with my friends at an award-giving ceremony. I totally forgot that the result was going to come out on that day. On the other hand, my friends had already been waiting for it and in fact, prepared their "sources" to help them to check their results online while they were away from the computer at the ceremony.
Some of my friends were jumping around happily for being offered the scholarship while there were some others who got rejected. How about me? Me, sitting there, was totally still with my emotion. Because I already knew what my result going to be. So, what's the point for checking my result? Plus, I did not really care much about it.

But Hey! Wait a second there!

"Amy, I just helped you to check your result. Guess what? You are in!" *big grin*
"Oh yea oh yea......" I did not believe in what he said. He was sure making fun of me.
"Did you hear me? YOU ARE IN!"
"I know. Stop fooling around with me."
"I mean, seriously, YOU ARE IN. I am not joking."

Hmmm.... All right....
Speaking the truth, I did not quite believe him until I checked it on my own after I got home.

"Tahniah! Saudari telah ditawarkan biasiswa JPA untuk melanjut pelajaran di Amerika Syarikat dalam kursus Bioteknologi."
*translation: "Congratulations! You have been offered the JPA scholarship to study in the United States with a degree in Biotecnology."*

-Oh-My-God-
Are you serious?
To be honest, I was not too happy about the news at first. Because I already had MY plan! MY plan was to further my study at UCSI in Kuching for foundation courses and go to KL to do my degree after that.

Now what? JPA? United States!?
Come on... Why United States????!
I don't like that country. It is so far away from home. So dangerous. I heard about the murders, gunshots in campus, 911 event..... All the negative news about that country.
I don't wanna go there.

Nevertheless, I made my decision to accept the offer. After all, it was difficult (I mean real difficult) for one to be offered with that scholarship. But at that time, I did not even sure if this is me being luck or unlucky.

After coming to INTEC (a college that offers courses to prepare scholarship recipients to study overseas), my life had been changed. Ya ya... By change, I mean I learn to be more independent and all those stuff but the most significant change is that: THIS IS WHERE I MEET GOD.

THIS IS WHERE I ACCEPTED CHRIST!

Oh man! How would I ever expected that this is going to happen? How would I even know? I did not know about all these plans He had been preparing for me. Isn't this awesome? How He put things together?

Pastor Greg said this in church this morning: "Things are going to be worse before they get better."
And truly, it is!

Well, of course I did not accept God out of a sudden.
I was going through the darkest period in my life in March last year. I was not me at all. Attacked with false lies from the devil, I was struggling hard to pull myself together again. It was so hard, so difficult and it was so much pain for me. I totally hate who I was at that time.

But God, He walked me through that period. He helped me to keep myself together when everything else on the outside was falling apart. He fight together with me against the devil. He reassured me that I am not alone. He is with me.
It was such a great comfort for me!

I am so glad that I had have this chance to come to the States. I believe that this is God's plan for me in guiding me to know Him better and come back to His kingdom.

*Oh my. This is going to be a long post. But hey, bear with me for a little more yea?*

After coming to the States, I had a hard time adapting to this new environment. As mentioned in my previous post, I had been betrayed and was so lonely then. Even though I went to church, I could not feel God's presence. I was so desperate that time and was praying hard to God every single day to help me get through with everything. I was very very thirsty.

I believed that He will hear my cries. And yes, He did!

One day, He sent a guy to me and Julius while we were waiting for bus to get back to our apartment from Walmart. As you could have already pictured in your mind, we were carrying so many bags full of groceries. Then this guy, Victor, came up to us and asked if we need a ride home.

Telling you the truth, I was scared at first.
A complete stranger? Suddenly appeared in front of us and asked if we need a ride? What's more, a black guy? (Okay, I am racist. I need a change for that.)

He continued to go on convicing us that he could give us a ride and he would be very happy to be able to help. So in the end, we gave up to him and accepted the offer because the bus had not come for such a long time.

It was during the ride home that we got to know that each other are Christians. This is so cool! So Victor introduced us about the Chi Alpha fellowship group in Purdue and invited us to go for Ignite on that Thursday night.
I went. And OH MY GOD, they are fantastic! I can feel the Holy Spirit filling in every person in the church. I felt the true joy I had not feel for such a long time since coming to the States. It is a very pure joy.

It is in this church that my spirit is renewed again. It is in this church that I received the gift of speaking in tongue. And I have a bunch of new friends from different countries.

Remember I told you that I am a racist and I need a change for that?
You bet, I have many Nigerian friends right now. =P


Isn't this exciting? God always want to bless us in every part of our lives.
And HE has the perfect plan for us.

I am so excited and can't wait to know what's His next plan for me =)