Sunday, April 12, 2009

Flash Back

Ya... I am left alone again... In this little living room of room 3/403... For all of them are in their room dy.. Sleeping? Studying? I am not sure....

When I am left alone, it's kinda dangerous...
Coz this is the time when I will think back all the things that happened again....
Whether it's good or bad, positive or negative....

I miss the old days....
When there's small gathering at the park with several friends every night..... Where we chat and laugh together....

I miss the old days...
When we go shopping and karaoke together....

I miss the old days...
When we just hang out together as a group, not as separate little groups....

I miss the old days...
When there is no gap between us at all....

I miss the old days...
Days when you declare me as your best friend, days when you keep reminding me how important I am to you, days when we have been really honest to each other, when we truly trust each other....

But when? Since when that there's a gap exists between us?
We start to argue, start blaming each other, start to emo..... (Maybe it's not us, but just "ME"!)

Until now,
I still do not know what to believe? Which sentence that you have said should I trust? Have you being honest to me? Or are you just pretending for all these while? What have you been thinking? What should I trust in you?

Most importantly,
WHAT EXACTLY HAS BROUGHT US TOGETHER AS CLOSE FRIENDS?
AND WHAT HAS BROUGHT US APART NOW???

I cannot trust you anymore, cannot talk to you, just don't understand the way you are thinking...

Perhaps,
I do not miss those days as much as I thought....

All those things seem so unreal to me now.....
Even you....
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4 comments:

Anonymous said...

IMO, you are just trapped in an emotional roller coaster, when you best friend neglected you because of finding a new companion.

Nobody was to be blamed. After all, as saying goes, love is blind. Blind enough to neglect even their best friends.

I beliee that your memories of happy and sad are real. After all, nobody will be pretending or lie in a sincere friendship, And I believe the authenticity of those memories, judging by how emotional you are because of those.

Friendship is imperfect. There is always disagreement and fights, yet it was because of that friendship was precious. It was hard to maintain a sincere innocent friendship.

I believe that you're still his number 1 best friend, and it's a waste to desert friendship just because of some misunderstanding in life.

I believe that the friendship still can be mended. If he really neglected you much because of a new companion, just tell him how folly he is and give him a big whack. I'm sure he will understand.

I believe that there are still times to repair, or you may might regret later for losing one of ur best friend in life.

Go for it, gal

April 21, 2009 at 3:19 AM
~AmY~ AmylopectiN said...

Hey! Specs of Life, although I do not know you but yea.. I want to thank you...

You are right that this friendship is so so precious to me... In fact, it was the best friendship that I ever had... But, things changed. And he changed.

I just do not how to talk to him again. I feel very awkward with him. And I just do not like people keep pushing me to mend this friendship...

I still miss the friendship that we both had had... but, things jus aren't the same now... And I just do not want to get hurt anymore...


I wonder....
If he hate me............

April 23, 2009 at 9:20 PM
Liz said...

i can tell you one thing:

he doesn't hate you.

and to quote him:
"I always welcome the moment you are willing to get things back to normal. =)"

i just wanted to know. he doesnt hate you.

April 23, 2009 at 10:32 PM
Liz said...

*wanted you to know.

sorry missed out a word.

April 23, 2009 at 10:49 PM

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