Should I set the blog to private?

Because I start to feel and believe that blogging is a better way for me to express my feeling wholeheartedly, without artificial covering, without the need to care others' feeling, without the fear of hurting someone, without the necessity to lie.....

I CAN TELL EVERYTHING HERE!!!

I can scold anyone that I dislike. I can scold him in which ever way that I like by writing down here. But still, I wont dare to scold in front of him.

I just... Find out that there is no one out there who really can share my problem. No one.
Sometimes, I just need to release out my anger and stress and start scolding nonsense and want to feel that I have the right to do so. In fact, I know I do not.
I know it's wrong. I know it's not like that. I know I am too sensitive.
But, I just need someone to just listen to me and just simply nodding his head when I complain. Not criticize back at me!

No.... No one can do that..... As everyone else is busy with their own things... Who care what you feel?

Sometimes, I really feel like going to a counselor and tell everything to him or her. But, will he or she keeps the secrets for me? What will they think about me? Alright. Maybe finding a counselor is still not a good option for me because I still care what others' perspective on me.

So, I really think that writing is still the best way for me to express my feeling.
But, after writing down???
What will be the next?

Keep to myself? Start collecting a diary perhaps?
Or, let the public read, just like blogging?

Sometimes, I really do not know what I want exactly.
And I do not know the exact reason for being emo.
That's why I cannot give you a reason when you ask. And I get really really frustrated after being asked so many times with the questions that I don't know the answers. And I burst! And I start cursing people. And it makes the situation much much worse.....

Ya. I do enjoy the feeling for being important for someone. I hope that he or she will care about me when I am down. Trying to cheer me up. But not asking why I am desperate. I just hate to explain when I get depressed.

I don't know why but I have the feeling that my blog is going to be another emo blog dy.

Leave if you are feeling happy now and don't want to get your mood spoilt. Coz I can be like an antagonist drug for your endorphin. I will depress your mood. DENG DENG!

Sigh...
I am just too desperate for someone to listen to my complaint.