He never forget

I was talking with a friend a few weeks ago. He is undergoing probably the hardest part of his life right now. He has talked to pastors and a lot of sisters and brothers in the church, yet he could not help but to feel hopeless about his future.

That night, I just finished my last exam and was feeling so free and relieved. I prayed a little prayer inside my heart: God, now that I am free, use me in any ways You want. After that, I decided to go to the church and just to spend some time alone with God. As soon as I reached there, I met other brothers and sisters who were having their choir practice there too. Hence, I kind of hang around with them for a while before he came.

When I saw him, I was shocked. And I am pretty sure he was too.

I already know what he is going through right now and have been trying to contact him. But he never respond.

But that night, we talked.

He said, he is going back to his country and might never have the chance to come back anymore after that. So, that would probably be the last chance for us to meet.

God is so good that He set this divine appointment.
People might thought that this is a chance given by God to heal him, but they might have missed that this is actually a healing from God for me too.

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God brought him to me and another sister through a divine appointment too.

It was during the passion week. While me and another sister were praying in the prayer room, he walked in and sat alone at one of the corners of the room. When we were about to leave, he suddenly spoke up to us, telling us the depression and helplessness that he was having. We prayed and I left soon after that to run for my class.

After that, I found out one of our brothers in Chi Alpha knows this friend of mine too. It was kind of crazy that this brother ran into this guy EVERY week after the divine appointment. Hence, he tried to invite him to our Chi Alpha meeting.

A few weeks later, he came.

I was so happy when I saw him. But I never got the chance to talk to him because the worship had begun when he walked in. And then, I had to leave for intercession prayer in another room.

Throughout the whole prayer, I was praying for him, praying that God will set him free from the chain of depression. I truly truly believe that God sent him to our meeting for a purpose and He is going to change his life.

But that did not happen that night.

When I returned to the room and tried to look for him, he was not there anymore. Later, I found out from another friend that he left soon after he came in.

Suddenly, I broke down. And cried. I felt so sorry and regret that I did not do "something" earlier (But in fact, I clearly knew that there was nothing I could do at that moment). I felt condemnation but was not clear where did that condemnation come from.

Earlier during the intercession prayer, I had a vision that there was a spiritual warfare occurring in the room. I saw angels surrounding the people in the room, protecting them from the attack of the enemies.

At that very moment, I even had the sense that satan has won (which of course, is a lie from the enemies).

I just could not understand why God has set a divine appointment among us and yet, let this to continue to happen on him. Why had God not set him free? Why did God let him leave like that? The vision I had earlier make the situation worse. I could not understand.

After that, I was kind of down for the next several days, asking God why why why.

But God's grace is really enough to get me through. He showed me Jeremiah 33:3.
I continued to pray for that friend, and having faith that God is going to do something about him. He will have His perfect plan for him. I learned to surrender everything to Him. I tried to cast the burden on Him and not to carry everything on my shoulder. Really, nothing would work unless it's done by His will.

I have to admit that my faith was weak.
But God used so many crazy ways to get His message across to me. He was telling me to continue to trust in Him and that He is going to do something great!
(For reference, you could read my previous posts)

All of those helped to rebuild my faith in Him.
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So, that night, was a confirmation from God to me that He never forget. And He will always have the victory. All the negative feelings, all the condemnation that I had earlier was not from Him, but from the enemies who are trying to crash my faith and distract me from continue to pray for my friend.

As we were talking that night, my friend was still feeling hopeless for his future and had a strong sense of condemnation from God for the mistakes he did. But in my heart, I felt extremely calm and suddenly had all the confidence that God is doing so not to condemn him but that He has a better plan for him.

Halfway through our conversation, he stopped.

And then he asked: "Amy, what makes you believe that God is real?"

I smiled.

I was thinking
"Don't you think that it is evident enough that God is real when He set up this divine appointment between us just one day before you left the States?"

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Hmmmm..........
I am filled with so much peace and joy now that I know

our almighty God will gain the victory forever and ever...................