The reason for smiling

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Hehe... I just cannot stop smiling.... I am so so so HAPPY! and EXCITED!!!!!!

Weeeeeeeeeeettttttt~~~!!!

God has been so good to me. My goodness!

Even though I accepted Christ last February, I have not been water baptized.
At first, I did not want to rush it because I think I am not really ready for it. That is a serious matter for me. And definitely requires a lot of consideration.

At one point, I became so depressed because I thought people in the church think I am weird and did not accept me because I am not water baptized. This might only been my own thinking and might not be true. But, oh man! I got so disappointed by the idea of water baptism. I felt I was forced to get water baptism. As if I am not considered a Christian if I don't.

In fact, I got this from one dude when he/she asked if I got water baptized.
He/she laughed and said, "You are not baptized. Then how possibly can you say that you are a Christian?"
It hit me hard.

I was confused.
I know we have to get water baptized when we accept Jesus, but I thought that is just a symbol, a pure ceremony. It does not disqualify me as a follower of Jesus if I don't get water baptized.
I thought, Christianity is about free will. So, why would I been pushed to do this now? Why are the Christians rejecting me by saying I am not one of them if I don't get baptized?

I did not know.

Perhaps the one thing that made such a great impact in my life that makes me change my view about water baptism is the incident when Victor invited me into Chi Alpha family.

I mean, that's really is GOD!
Like.... what?!! He does listen to my prayers. And He answered them =)

I began to get really involved in church activities as I got more and more revelation from Him. My faith has grown so much!

Until around October last semester, I started to keep getting reminders by God about water baptism. Through people in church, words in the bible, and also sermons.

And so I made that decision. To carry the cross and follow Jesus.

Now,
I am not ashamed!
I want to declare that I am His follower! Because He is real!!!! and has been so good to me =)

To make this decision, I do not want it to be hidden from the knowledge of my parents. I want their blessings.
So, I asked my parents about it. But sadly, I got a NO. I was once again, sad =(
I talked to Pastor Linda about the situation and she gave me great encouragement and comforted me with this verse:

"The king's heart is in the hand of the LORD; he directs it like a watercourse wherever he pleases." -Proverbs 21:1-

So I continued to pray. Everyday. Prayed that God will do something about it.


Nothing happened for the following several months.......
Until.....


Just few days before Valentine's, I went to walmart with the girls. There were many valentines' cards being sold in walmart. Right before we checked out the items, I suddenly had this urge to go to the cards section.

I did not know what am I getting at first.
Maybe cards for friends?

Then, I saw this really cute valentine's card at the corner of the rack. When I opened it, I realized that it is a card for parents.

This is so cute! Okay. I am getting it!

When I came home that night and was writing the card, I suddenly felt the urge to write about water baptism. But then I thought again.

No no it will be so weird!
Well, go ahead!
No no no no no.... I am not writing these weird stuff to freak my parents out.....
Just write it!

In the end, I wrote it.
I inserted a few sentences telling my parents about my desire to get water baptism and how important this is for me.
The next day, I sent the card out.

Oh my god! I couldn't believe I actually did it. Now I was scared. I did not know how was this going to turn out.

I continued to pray. Telling God: Lord, if this is Your will, I'll accept whatever plan You have for me.

Last night, my mum called.
She said she already received the card two days ago. But she never mention about the content of it. So I got scared and did not ask her about her opinion about it. And we hang up the phone after a while.

As I continued studying for my quiz the next day, I felt less and less comfort. There was a voice in my heart keep telling me to tell her. ASK HER! Whatever it might turn out.

So I asked her to call me again after her class (She is a teacher)

I got the courage to ask her about the water baptism.

"Daddy said up to you lor...."
"Then what do you think?"
"Up to you lar... But have u thought about it carefully? I mean, will it be a burden for you later? What if your future husband is not a believer?"
"Mum, He will have His plan for me. I am very sure I want to do this. I have been thinking this for a long time."
"Ok. Then it's up to you to make your own choice."

Oh wow! Did I hear something wrongly? Is that considered a YES?

"YES"

HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So people,
I guess I am saying....



I AM GETTING WATER BAPTISM!!!!!!!!!!

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